Back on Track

I went to the shore with Robin and John from Sunday to Wednesday and put on 4 pounds. I've taken off 3 of them. Did my 3rd Callanetics class. One of the girls in the class and the instructor told me that I can do it every day, even twice a day. So I signed up for unlimited. I have a little over 3 weeks before school starts, let's see what I can do.

Today, I weighed 199. I need to get pictures taken of me.

So far today I've had coffee, a protein shake with Peanut Butter and heavy cream, and a Greek salad w/chicken on top. I used Tzatziki sauce for dressing.

If I am hungry later, I'll have some low carb ice cream.

Tomorrow I won't have to be anywhere at any given time, so I can focus on cleaning up the house.

I have counseling today. I think I am going to tell my counselor that I don't feel like going anymore. He seems to want me to sit around and cry. There was a group meeting on Monday nights and it was just people sitting around and talking about their problems. That is NOT at all my style; I want to FIX my problems.

I think I learned a couple of things from counseling. I need to slow down. Easier said than done, for me.

Phoenix Rising

My dad loved the idea of the phoenix...recreating itself out of the ashes. And that's kind of where I'm at, in my life.

I left Robert at the end of June. After 10 years together, he didn't want to get married. I was devastated. I felt like he kicked me in the stomach. Actually, though, I should THANK him.

I am much more content and happy without him.

I am 44 years old and really felt horrible....I thought we were planning for a future together. Silly me.

I moved all my most important stuff out of his house and am now living with my mom.

Rather than sitting around feeling sorry for myself, I am re-creating myself.

I had saved $4000.00 so I wouldn't have to work this summer. I used it to buy a new bed, get my bedroom painted, and get some electrical work done.

I now have my treadmill in the basement, and am taking Callanetics classes. I just ordered a Fluidity bar today. I'll have it in about 2 weeks.

I had always wished that I had taken ballet lessons. I never did any kind of bar work. Man, it kicks your butt! I'm eager to see what I look like, once I shed the extra weight.